Best Friend by Illmaculate
Best Friend lyrics
This here is dedicated to my best friend�
Verse 1
What�s this feeling, it�s not depression it�s happiness (nah)
I�m never happy even when my life is at it�s best
Standing at a cliff, this is the closest I�ve come
To given up, it�s over I�m done, I jumped over and plunged
To the water beneath, drowning both of my lungs
I find the darkness peacefully and tries the glow of the sun
Can�t get this off my chest, my shoulder�s are holdin a ton
I�ve had many things stolen, my soul is just one
If I could talk to the past me, I woulda told me to run
In the opposite direction from the path I choose as the one
to follow, now I�m labeled by polarized sun
Who says life is supposed to be kosher and fun?
For me it�s a need to write, my brain just follows
Cause I�m not a breathing life, just a frame that�s hollow
If I had a choice to receive the light and trade my sorrow
It'd be night and I�d be seeing no day tomorrow
Chorus
I don�t hate my life, I just hate those that judge it
I don�t hate life, I just hate those that love it
I don�t love life, if you ever don�t feel the same
it won�t be there like everything else
I don�t hate my life, I just hate those that judge it
I don�t hate life, I just hate those that love it
I don�t love life, if you ever don�t feel the same
it won�t be there like everything else
Verse 2
Unless there�s a change, my most reliable friend is my pain
He�s always there at the end of the day
And I�m offended you would say, �I should be happy�
Your happiness keeps trying to get my only friend to go away
I�ve been foolish for mistakes, so I movin to a place
Secluded in the boonies cause I�m loosin all my face
I�m only human, I admit my music isn�t great
But there�s so much momentum fuel if you've been through it and relate
Seems like I�m moving through a phase, where I�m hurting in my life
I lose myself in the pages of the verses that I write
Create an image through rhyme
So he tracks a snapshot of emotions and thoughts at that particular time
It'd be different if I could just rewind, yea right
I�d probably rewind too far and see my death in a past life
That�s right, quicksand drowning me in confessions
And I�d befriended pain, and find happiness in depression
Chorus
I don�t hate my life, I just hate those that judge it
I don�t hate life, I just hate those that love it
I don�t love life, if you ever don�t feel the same
it won�t be there like everything else
I don�t hate my life, I just hate those that judge it
I don�t hate life, I just hate those that love it
I don�t love life, if you ever don�t feel the same
it won�t be there like everything else
Verse 3
Navigating this road from the backseat, trying to stop
And realizing the only time I�m happy is when I�m not
Famine the flames of depression, my madness keeps on fueling it
What�s worse - not having happiness or having it and losin it
A professor must detrude, unless it�s misconstrued
by my brain untainted by my pessimistic views
They are a safeguard that I clutch
Cause if you're hurt you�re hurt, but if you�re happy and get hurt, it�s hard to adjust
The problem is one, now I can't tell if im stronger and tough
Or just softer and numb, smarter or dumb
Look at all I�ve become, and now im steadily hopin
I can grow leather skin in traits for these leather emotions
Repetitive motion as I wave goodbye to a nice day
and a nice haze me from the skin-pelting light rays
We're time slaves and I can embrace it
Here�s a last statement, I love pain that way I don�t have to hate it
Chorus
I don�t hate my life, I just hate those that judge it
I don�t hate life, I just hate those that love it
I don�t love life, if you ever don�t feel the same
it won�t be there like everything else
I don�t hate my life, I just hate those that judge it
I don�t hate life, I just hate those that love it
I don�t love life, if you ever don�t feel the same
it won�t be there like everything else... except for pain
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